So I might have ruined the best thing going for me

I totally ruined one of my friendships, the strongest one I ever made. I claim all responsibility for it and, why yes, it sucks to the max. After a particularly hard time yesterday I told her I thought we should stop talking for a while, at least for a week, and it seems like she's going for it. After a while I realized how stupid that was and tried to apologize several times, one explaining myself in an email, once through text, and another through gifts. By now she's seen everything and I still haven't gotten a reply. Everyone I've talked to about it said she'll get over it in a few days and forgive me, but I can't help but feel like this was the last straw, that she's actually going to keep me out this time. This is the third major issue we've had over the same thing in two months, so yeah, I'm worried that I just lost the best friend I've ever had, someone I don't want to go through life without. I can only hope that she'll forgive me and we can get through this and I can become a better friend to her, one she deserves. If I honestly lost her because of my stupidity and selfishness, I don't know what I'm going to do.

My mission in life. Plus a beautiful Asian man in fright. Hey, that rhymed!

Hyde and Ken go to a Haunted House. Poor Haido, he gets scared at every turn.

I've decided my new goal in life is to either be a matchmaker and make Steve Ward fall for me (resulting in either us having our own reality show or me joining Tough Love as a consultant) or somehow getting Jacoby Shaddix to sing a Disney song with me. In public. We could cover Celine Dion's version of "Beauty and the Beast". If neither of these come to pass, then going to a Haunted House with Hyde will do.

Get it, V!

Alright, my boy V Sevani, formerly of NLT, was MIA for a while until he began updating his facebook and twitter like crazy, uploading video diaries, songs, and great videos like Love Pop. Check this vid out! I almost cried from the awesomeness of it!!

update

Got my wisdom teeth taken out on Tuesday. That was probably the best experience of my life until I woke up. I didn't even know I passed out until I woke up with the gauze in my mouth. It's been a sucky ride since I've been home, but whatever, the drugs they put me on are amazing at times. I even forgot what I came here to do. Well....ta-ta.

K.P., real name, no gimmicks

I was going through my trash today to see if any Papa Roach emails got sent to the wrong place when I found an email that my mother sent out to everyone recently. Apparently she's still playing the "holier than thou" card and hasn't taken her head out of the clouds to realize that people don't want to be around her, besides a couple of exceptions. She offered to play host for the holiday's at her and her lover's place since there seem to be some people who said she couldn't come over to their own houses for the holidays, mostly to protect the children from her influence. I don't know how people come up with these solutions. Let me point this out: she sent this email to everyone a.k.a. her family a.k.a. the very people who said they didn't want her over. So if we said "Stay back" we'll jump at the chance to drive all the way to Grand Prairie to spend Christmas with you? No, we just don't want to be around you. We're not imposing restrictions because we don't want anyone ruining the carpet. If we don't want you over here, then we're certainly not wasting our time to go over there. I get the inkling that she's doing this to prove to her new "family" that she's the victim, she was the good child, she only wants her family to be together, when she really only wants attention and praise from new people. Ok, when she ditches this guy too for either an old flame or a new dish on the menu, you'll get it. They always do.
This was comical to me. I seriously almost choked on my Cap'n Crunch in laughter. Then a few hours later (I guess someone emailed her the truth again) her man sent out an attachment to her email. Without actually saying it, he called my entire family cowards. I already have a problem with this guy. I've never spoken to him and he never made the effort to speak with me face-to-face. Oh, he had the oppurtunity when his girlfriend came over and was acting like she just won an Oscar or something. We were both alone in the kitchen and completely ignored the other, like I intended to happen for the rest of his showtime in this particular season of "The Young and the Senseless". But then he sent me an email that really creeped me out. I repeat, I've never talked to this guy, but he was calling me "baby girl", "angel", "Kay", and (get ready to barf) "the seed of the women I love". Ew. First off, no one calls me "baby girl" unless we're together, I am no kind of angel, I'd slap anyone that called me Kay, and I'm already disgusted to be related to my mom, please don't bring my conception into this. He also sent this email to my mother and my grandparents, but not to my daddy, the man who inspired me to be the person people can be proud of. I don't know what my mother lied, but my dad is the only parent (besides Allison and my grandparents) that I have. I consider it a personal insult that this man, this chapter in a 6-part series, excluded him from this "open and real" message, that he had no problem sending it to everyone else. So this "man" wanted to "connect" online, but not to my face like a real man would do? Yeah, I doubt you really give a darn. So this guy wants to call us cowards in an email? Come over and do it. Here's a simple concept: cause and effect. Talk mess, spit blood. Email trash, get e-bashed. If he thinks I'm avoiding my mother because of fear, then go ahead. It's all stand-up to me.
Let me get something straight. I'm disowning my mother because she disowned, left, emotionally abused, scarred me. I spent 17 years thinking I wasn't good enough for her, that my brothers and I weren't enough, because she was always high, always staying at another man's house, always breaking our hearts and promises to get her fix, whatever it was at the time. She wasn't doing those things because she lost her kids, it was the other way around. She was a great mom before she left again, and I was all set to put all my hurt away, but then I found out she had to get high every day to be the super mom we saw. She cussed me out over this current man before she left, when I only mentioned him in passing, when I was trying to fix things between us. She called me Satanic, and a lesbian, just to make her look good. I'm keeping her at eternal bay because I want to be the person I was before I realized my happy world had major cracks: happy, strong, and rational, things I couldn't be as her daughter. I'm getting to that point without her, I am a success without her, and I will continue to thrive without her. She threw me away in a dark place and can never find me again, no matter how long she searches or calls out my name. If she reads this (woman, if you read this) and it strikes a cord with you or your man, since you have to run to everyone to every thing that hurts your wittle feelings, come over and say it to my face. You might actually garner a few moments of attention from me. Call me out on my words, and I'll call you out on your lies.

Great vids and t-shirts (basically promoting YGOTAS)

Lol Kaiba and Marik are on a blimp. FYi: this vid has explicit lyrics. Joey channels his inner Lady Gaga and tells us of his Brooklyn Rage. Yugi's tired of everyone shoving him aside for Yami and DBZ, so he writes a rap to share his feelings and announce his triumphant return while Yami explains how he became of Phresh Pharoh of Bel-Air (yes, I spelled it correctly). Seto also puts in his brother hours and takes Mokuba to the dentist.

If you like anime, abridged series, or videogame humor, check out this merchandise. I found about seven t-shirts that will be bought as soon as I get a card with some money on it. Or convince someone to do it for me.

Also, for my sake at least, please, please, plase vote for CardGamesFTW, LittleKuriboh's current YouTube account, on this site by using your Twitter or Facebook accounts in the Funniest YouTube channel category. You can vote once a day, which I'm totally doing. LK totally deserves an award for his stuff.

DBSK's Hero

Hero from DBSK is so adorable in this vid! He messes up about 3 times in this vid, but his face is so cute when he realizes it!